blog-o-rama

for the love of god SHUT UP!

2005-11-24T12:13:00.000-08:00

: random artists
mood:

mkay, lately i've been getting a lot of........complaints, about me not posting for over two months or longer. i know it's my responsibility to maintain and update my site, but my social life is taking over my online life, so i've decided to shut down the site. i'll probably be back later on in the year, but for now, i'm busy with friends, family, bf's, and myself. oh yeah, as of tomorrow, i will finally be 14. happy birthday to me, peace out and much love.

Say it's true, say you like me

2005-08-24T21:32:00.000-07:00

: motion city soundtrack
mood:

Whoa, I haven't posted here in forever, but now I have returned. A lot of drama has been going on lately; my friend James has been acting weird lately. But come to think of it, so am I. Everytime we try to talk to each other or are alone, we don't have anything to say. I get this feeling (not butterflies in stomach dreamy feeling) that I have something to say to him, but I'm lost for words. On top of that, our friends are involved, so that puts more pressure on the situation.

Anyway, I took some pics of a few of my outfits that I said I'd post in my last entry: sequin ballet flats, crop sweater, bohemian skirt, purse that I'm currently in love with, kelly green dress my mom bought me (anna says it looks peter panish lol), the most comfortable jeans I've ever bought, and a simple yet cute brown shirt. I still need another pair of jeans, a few more shirts, and accessories, but I can manage with this until I get paid. I just heard that I go back to school on the 1st, ( meaning tomorrow I only have a week left of summer) and I still haven't done anything with my friends . Gah, I've been so busy all summer I haven't had any time to have fun. But I guess going to school will kinda be a release, I won't have to stay at home with my siblings all day.

I'm so lost. Does anyone (if anybody reads this) know where to get animations to put in avatars? If you don't know what I'm talking about, here's an example:

I wanted to make one about the new m&m commercial, lmao. Ugh, a mosquitoe is biting me, now i must kill it, meaning I'll have to stop here, so peace out.

I'll never be satisfied

2005-08-09T23:09:00.000-07:00

: fall out boy
mood:

I went on an unexpected hiatus, but I'm back now, and I've brought news along.

Sigh. Ok, I'm finally home after 6 (or more) hours of riding in the car with my sibs and parents. I'm so happy that I'm out of that hell hole, now I can relax and hang out with my friends. Currently working on a site to put layouts on, instead of having them in the visitor section. I might use it as a portfolio. As you can see I've changed my layout (I'm a layout whore) with different navigation. So make everything easier for everyone, I'll tell you where to find what would usually be in the side column once, and only once. To find to see quick stats about my site, go to the 'Site' section. If you hover over the numbers long enough, you can see that I've labeled them. you can also find my blog archives there. I've put the reads in the 'You' section just to make my life easier, and I've added more crap about me. I'm working on putting up more graphics, and I'm trying to clean up the you part a bit.

Anyway, enough about that. Before I left, I went shopping . Kauffmans was having a sale, so I bought this really cute boho/broomstick skirt that fades from light turquoise to dark. Me and my mom spent forever trying to find a top to go with it, but I finally found a crop sweater that was the same color as the bottom of the skirt, and I got a white shirt to go underneath it. I didn't have enough time to find accessories, but I bought a pair of sequin ballet flats. I might show pics, I haven't decided yet. After that, me, my mom, and my baby sis, spent about 10 minutes looking for my dad. We didn't find him and I didn't feel like looking any further, so I suggested we go to the food court and get something to eat. I got a pretzel and lemonade, then waited for my mom to get something from McDonald's. While I was waiting, 3 guys walked past me, one of them slowed down and looked back. I didn't really notice it at first because I was too busy thinking about other things, but a few minutes later one of the guys he was with came up to me. We started talking and he asked me the usual questions, then I asked him what he wanted. He told me about his friend blah, blah, blah and so on. I didn't notice my mom was right behind him, so when I saw here, I kinda froze. I had expected her to walk over to us and pull me away, but all she did was wave her hand signalling me it was time to go. I told him I had to go and said bye, but he gave me his number before he left. I don't know if I'm going to call him or not, I haven't had time to decide. Unfortunely I have to stop here, I'll update more later.

go go power rangers

2005-07-29T22:58:00.000-07:00

: gwen stefani
mood:

my title has nothing to do with this entry, my mind has kinda wandered off somewhere lol.

ahh, i just came back from new york/ohio 4 days ago. i know i've waited a long time before i blogged about it, but after i came home, i wasn't really in the mood for it. it was a horrible ride until we got to new york, where my grandmama and papa spoiled me ( i loved every minute of it ). i only got to stay a couple of days until i went to ohio with my aunt and cousins. that wasn't so bad since we travelled by plane. i went to K.I. (king's island) with my friends as a pre-going away party. i stayed at my grandparents house and left the next day.

moving on from my chaotic trip, i finished my song/poem. i thought it would work better as a poem, but it can go both ways.

dream on
end the night with a wishful sigh
leaving that eternal burning question why?
shake it off and go to bed
it's over, but with things left unsaid

look at the stars, look how the shine for us two
shimmering, dancing, around teh moon
how i envy them, reminding me that i can only
dream on

sprawled out on the rooftop
lost in an sea of thoughts
seeing life as an endless lie
experiencing a short moment of bliss,
only to be plummeted back down
to the bellows of deep sorrow

there are some lines i didn't like, but it's still good. i'll stop here for now, CSI is on, yay!

~~oh, i almost forgot to add. to comment, there is a link inbetween the two arrows (they look like this '> <') next to the time. hope that cleared everything up for everyone.~~

i will get my revenge

2005-07-21T14:52:00.000-07:00

: queens of the stoneage; plain white t's
mood:

yesterday was horrible! i went to an interview yesterday for my mom's law firm (i didn't do this voluntarily, she turned in an application for me). they said my application was ok, but the interview probably wasn't as impressive. but it doesn't matter, i didn't even want to be there in the first place. i told my mom everything that i screwed up, and she said it was fine if i didn't get it (but she gave me the you'regoingtogetthatjobnomatterwhat look ). aside from that, i wrote a song!...kinda. i haven't decided on a title yet, but i'll show you it anyway; feel free to leave your opinion.

v:1 lay your head upon my chest;
close your eyes, but not to rest;
tell me darling, as you cry these tears;
all of your thoughts, dreams, and fears

chorus and as the night grows cold (stale and old);
our hearts warm, my body numb;
your soft lips slam into mine
not thinking of what will become of us,
everything's fine

v:2 salty streams run through rosy cheeks;
i bite my tongue, disabling me to speak;
your gaze is kind, reassuring, not blank;
lacing your fingers within mine

v:3 presented with a kiss, bodies becoming one;
our tongues do the walts, stomach does a flip;
i smile at the moment;
arms draped around neck, hands rested on hips

chorus and as the night grows cold (stale and old);
our hearts warm, my body numb;
your soft lips slam into mine;
not thinking what will become of us,
everything's fine

repeat chorus 2x

i have another song i was working on, but it's not completely finished yet. currently working on my poetry site, i think it turning out nice. i've also been working on visitor content, i won't put that up until i'm done with all of it. i'm off to make more smilies, so i'll stop here.

...........

2005-07-18T13:15:00.000-07:00

: something corporate
mood:

i had so much fun saturday.............kinda. it would have been better if my dad hadn't come along with me and my mom, but nevermind that; went to the mall with amanda around 12, were we met up with claire. they looked around for new swimsuits while i wandered off to find a new phone. after that and a pretzel, i walked around aimlessly (not really) looking for amanda and claire. that's when i ran into josh (he lives across the street from me. and when i say ran, i mean we actually ran into each other, almost falling down lol.) and we walked, talked, & window shopped from then on., until claire pull me away from him telling me it was time to go. i was pissed off, because we were going to see a movie, and i yelled at claire on our way home. ah weel, i guess i can get his number when he comes back from vacation.

moving on to what i was going to say, my friend amber suggested that i do side projects, to show people what else i'm capable of. so after sending hours in my room thinking, i decided to make a poetry site. i'll give all the full details once i have everything neatly planned out.

before i forget..........what would an entry be without updates? i'm changing guestbook host, since i'm not liking the once i have now. sorry to anyone who has posted something in my guestbook. i've added two new poems, untitled and poetry. you can find untitled at the bottom of the personal poems, and poetry at the end of the (formerly known as acrostic) misc. poems. i'll write more later, my bro is bugging me to get him something to drink.

living with the idiots

2005-07-13T14:44:00.000-07:00

: radiohead]
mood:
returning back from my hiatus for a short while and i've come with news:

This Just In...
due to my living arrangements and conditions, i don't think that i'll be making anymore blog layouts. i may make one more, just because, but that will probably be the last one. so sad, i know, but that's just the way it is. oh yeah, and because my mom's a bitch, i won't update my site as often.

moving on to my life, i was tricked into babysitting my sibs , but i guess it wasn't all that bad; my brothers may be annoying and my baby sis is a brat, but at least i'm getiing paid for it lol. there's just pne thing that bothers me though, how am i supposed to make new friends if i never leave the house? i think my parents are being over protective about me babysitting, they won't even let me open the curtains or windows while they're gone. but then again, i can see why; we don't know anyone here, and they don't want anything to happen to my sibs.

though i wouldn't mind them being away for a while...............lol jk.

and if you haven't noticed already, i didn't get accepted for hosting, but that's ok. i was thinking about buying my own domain instead of applying for a free domain. lately i've been looking at dreamhost and i'll probably signing with them, but i'll look around at others before i make my final decision. before i forget........

here's a random pic that i drew. it's nothing special, but i like it and i think it's cute. btw, the person on the cliff (boy) isn't pushing the other person off of the cliff (the little bow on its head indicates that it's a girl), but he's trying to catch her. a lot of people thought the guy was trying to kill the girl and said i was evil for drawing that lol.

ch-ch-ch-changes

2005-06-23T19:32:00.000-07:00

: the dead 60's; mcr
mood:

out of a moment of randomosity (is that even a word? lol), i made what was supposed to be a blend into a new layout for my blog. i love it, i think it looks cool and cute . the bg looks a little off to me but ah well. anyway, i also from my random moment, i made a little music icon >> , and it too looks cool and cute. and now that i have a bigger layout, i can put up my tutorials. i'm still having trouble with my glitter sigs and images; most of them are still too big to fit. i think i;m just going to give up for now and move on to something else. also worked on some random pics, so you can check those out and use them or whatever.

now moving on to my personal life; i just heard that my aunt and cousins are "dropping by". why on the week when i'm panicking and tired does everyone decide to come over and visit. i still have a ton of packing and washing to do; now that i'm thinking about it, i haven't done anything . there's nothing else much left to say, so i'll stop here.

ugh

2005-06-21T18:55:00.000-07:00

: asteria] ; matchbook romance
mood:

i'm probably going to regret putting up a pic of myself, but anyway if you haven't figured it out yet, it's included in my short bio over to the right. i apologize to anyone who has been scarred, blinded, or scared while viewing said pic.

just got a call from my mom telling me that they [her and the rest of my fam] would be coming to get me in a couple of days, and i still have a ton of clothes to wash and pack. oh yeah, i'll probably be on hiatus for a week or two, it depends on when i'll have access to another computer. and if i plan on changing my layout, i have to do that now. i've decided to combine music and nature, so i'll be plotting, planning, blue-printing, and devising a new layout . now i need to choose from bloc party, greenday, mcr, or soad. *thinks* whatever, it'll come to me later.

getting back to the topic of me moving and all; i'm so happy! not because i'm moving, i'm a little depressed about that, but because they're actually going to pay me for babysitting my sibs *does my happy dance* lol. plus, i think i'll have a little more freedom there than i did hav here . oh i can't wait to go shopping up there! the malls in pitts. kick our pathetic little malls asses . ok, who ever's calling won't stop calling until i answer the phone, so i have to stop here.

random

2005-06-20T21:44:00.000-07:00

: asteria; sugarcult
mood:

for some strange reason i had the urge to blog, so here i go. my god, i have so much to do! i just got done packing half on ym closet into my suitcase, and i have the rest of that and the clothes in the laundry room to do . i should be packing now, but i'm a procrastinator (sp?), so i probably won't finish until friday. anyway, i'm searching for a movie to go to with my friends on wed., but there's nothing but a load of worthless shit playing in theaters. where are the ohmygodijustpissedmypantsandi'mshriekingatthetopofmylungsalmostchokingonmym&m's horror movies? i would check out land of the dead, but sadly i won't be here. i think i'll have to go on hiatus, but i don't know how long it will be. i'll update in my next entry. ugh, i haven't had any time to do anything web related; i haven't been able to do my tutorials in a while. and i think i've given up on glitter sigs and images, maybe i'll add them back when i change my layout.

father's day was a nightmare yesterday. i don't get the point of these meaningless holidays; it'd not like they're an important part of life. everybody decided to come over to our house after church, which took away my time. later on, my cousins acted liek retards and started a food fight, and i had to clean it up. it pisses me off when they expect me to clean up after everyone . but it will all be over soon, i'll be gone by saturday.

i want to make a new layout for my blog, but i can't decide whether to make a simple natural layout, or a complex music based layout. whatever, i'll think about it later. i can't make complete and decent blog entry so i'll stop here.

okie doke lol

2005-06-18T15:47:00.000-07:00

: the used
mood:

ok, i'm not blogging to talk about me, just to tell you a few updates i've made.
*i've made 2 new layouts, if you're new here, you can check them out in the you section.

*i'm still working on my tuts for those who need help; they'll be here some time soon.

*~~for some strange reason, i've decided to go back to my old dairyland blog, so i'l be working on that (i'm thinking about making a few layouts for diaryland.)~~ done with diaryland, the server keeps going down.

*i am now currently in love with the honorary title (jarrod gorbel is the sex lol.)

that's all for now

yes!

2005-06-17T18:18:00.000-07:00

: the honorary title
mood:

after searching for about a week, i've finally found a host *does a happy dance* lol. i'm not officially hosted yet, but i'm waiting to see if i'm accepted. and if i am accepted, it will be bye bye blogger and hello vintage plaything. i'm burnign with anticipation. i'm still working on my photo gallery, so look out for that, and i'm currently working on a new layout for blogskins (thank you kelia for the idea). it will be almost exactly lke this layout, only with kelly clarkson and it will be darker.

ok, enough about that, now it's time to get personal. i drew a few new pics in my sketch book, and i have to say, i love them ! i thought they would end up crappy, but they turned out nice. one i might use to turn into a comic strip/story, and the other i'll just draw just because. oh yeah, and i recently signed up for eXPOSURE, so my site will be available to people like me and outside of blogger. nothing much really happened yesterday; my mom made me go shopping with her . luckily i met up with my friend ariel and a group of kids she was with, so i found an excuse to escape. i feel a little bad though, ditching my mom likr that;maybe i'll ask her to go to the mall this weekend. ok, i have to stop here, i'll update later.

surprising

2005-06-16T02:17:00.000-07:00

ok, i thought i would be gone longer to rebuild my site, but it didn't. i must say, i LOVE this layout! i think it's one of my best skins ever made. i'm working on my glitters, so they probably won't be back up until a week or less. i've added a some music videos too, you can check those out in the music section. the videos are those of some of my fav. bands, and the codes should be working. oh, and the site might run a little slower than usual because of the videos. that's all i have to say for now, getting sleepy and hungry .

sorry

2005-06-15T18:03:00.000-07:00

ok, it looks like i'll be going on another hiatus, but this will be a short one. i'm currently working on a new layout, so it will take me a while to get everything up and running. bbs with updates and a new skin.

sigh.....

2005-06-14T21:53:00.000-07:00

sorry for going on hiatus without notifying you, but i'm back now.

so i'll start off by telling you what i've been working on....
updates :
i've made 8 new layouts, you can find them in the you section.
i've finally figure out how to make glitter sigs and images, so you can also check those out in the you section. they look kind of crappy, but i think they're good for a first try .
i'm trying to write a few tuts for those who need help, so look out for that.
i'll be making a photo album of my sketches, so look out for that too.

now to switch over to my personal life. nothing much really happened, except that my weekend was ruined. i had planned on going to the pool but it was raining really bad outside, so i had to stay inside . it was like that fri.-mon., and it finally stopped today. but i have to say, i'm happy that it rained. i had to babysit my cousins today, and a couple of my friends came over to help me. i was able to convince them all to come outside and do one more childish thing before i left; i chose to splash in the puddles. passerbys looked at us like we were all crazy, but it was fun. later we caught fireflies and walked to get ice cream . lol it's fun to be young.

ok, that's all that happened and that's all i have to say for now.

fun, fun, fun!

2005-06-06T16:38:00.000-07:00

: garbage
mood:

i know i haven't posted in a while but i'm back now, and i'll fill you in on what happened.

thursday 06.02.05 : it was a typical school day, the only thing different about it was that it was an exam day . me and my friends were thinking about what to do over the weekend when, -drumroll- , we heard that we didn't have school on friday . i was so happy; i textedall of my friends and told them we were going to knigs island on friday.

friday 06.03.05 : went to kings island, had tons of fun. i took a pic with spongebob and chuckie, but unfortunately i lost it going to the waterpark. but that's ok, some guy i met there won me a stuffed animal. after that we all headed for graeter's and ate ice cream til we were sick and stayed over at my friend bre's house for the night. watched movies, played games, called random guys, same old stuff.

saturday 06.04.05 : didn't really do much, just went to a church picnic and to the park. it was short but nice.

sunday (a little bit of monday) 06.05.05 : after i got home from church, i panicked trying to finish my math project (yes i know projects due on the last week of school !). i stayed up late just to watch csi and almost overslept again lol.

i have to stop here.

burn baby burn

2005-06-02T16:46:00.000-07:00

Your Element Is Fire

Your passion and emotion are as obvious as the brightest flame.
You make sparks fly, and your passion always has the potential to burst out.

You are exciting and creative - and completely unpredictable.
You sometimes exercise control, and sometimes you let yourself go.

Friends describe you as sensitive, spirited, and compulsive.
Bright and blazing with intensity, you seem mysterious and moody to many.

me again

2005-06-01T17:52:00.000-07:00

yes, i know it's been a couple of weeks since i've posted anything on here, but now i'm back. aren't you glad (don't answer that lol)?but i've had a very eventful and busy past two weeks and i need to vent.

yesterday, i went to a ceremony for nhs and was inducted. it was a proud moment for my family, my mom was disappointed the she wasn't here to see it herself. along with that, i was told today that i had been nominated to be in my school's leadership form. *sigh* i don't know why i'm being offered all of this extra stuff when i have to move . but that's ok, i'll probably be in programs like these at me new school.

oh, i've found a new hobbie, two to be exact. for a whil ei had only been doing webdesign/blog design because i wanted a layout that suited me and my personality, but now i like making layouts for other people . it gives me something to do with my time instead of sitting around bored. and i can express my creativity, so it's all good. hmm, i need to stop here for today, i have a ton of homework to do and i've run out of things to say lol.

so happy tee hee ^_^

2005-05-14T14:31:00.000-07:00

: jack johnson]; f.o.b.
mood:

I LOVED SPRING FLING! i'm positively ecstatic . i'm trying to use colorful vocabulary today. but anyways, everbody was dancing, yelling, screaming, etc. i was kind of pissed after the dance, because i had sweated my hair out, but everybody was sweating at the party, so it wasn't that big of a deal. my crush had asked me to dance and my hair was all big and poofy, i was so embarassed . i might post up pics when i get them. after the dance, we all went over to my friend tara's house to change and get ready for the after party, but went made a quick stop over to graeter's first of course . so we went to eric's party, danced and flirted, then we all went home. i would go into deep details but that would take forever.

i don't know if i mentioned this before but i added lyrics, poems, and my tagboard, so feel free to take a look.

oh before i forget, i found out i made njhs on thursday. there will be a recognition ceremony next week i think. i've been waiting for the school year to be over, and finally we have only 4 weeks left. 4 weeks.......that's still too long but i think i can make it. i got to see my family again this weekend, my baby sis was being a brat as usual and my brothers were annoying still. -sigh-, things never change. hmm, this is all i can think of to write about now, lates.

a poem w/o a title

2005-05-08T02:19:00.000-07:00

: no doubt
mood:

i just thought this up, so it might not be good.........and it's not done.

cold tears in my eyes
burning, they are, holding them back
drop down to my knees
only to plea for you to come back
why did you do this?
leave me here, all alone
salty streams escape,
a small whimper slips from my lips
but why?, i beg, why?
i silently cry
only to find, not suprised, by myself
run, the fallen leaves chant, run
cold wind passes through the tree branches
like an eerie whisper
alone, i say
all alone

secrets are never kept

2005-05-04T23:23:00.000-07:00

: mansun
mood:

today was a very interesting day. i just found out that one of my guy friends likes me. yes i know, aww how sweet. but when they [my friend jenni and someone else, i forgot ] told me , i felt.......lost. i didn't know whether to say "omg you like me? that's sweet but i don't like you that way." or " you like me? omg, i like you too!" i honestly didn't know what to say . i kinda feel a little bad too because i left everybody right after i heard that and didn't come back. after being gone for almost a month, all of my friends greet, hug and kiss me, and i just get up and leave . i think i'll go back either tomorrow or monday, so i can at least talk to everyone for a while. oh i almost forgot, the main reason why i'm feeling like this is because i haven't told everybody or anything my plans. i was thinking about leaving my friends a month before i move, seeing that i won't be able to talk to any of them after that. god, i have too much to think about . i have to remind myself to add this to my list of problems and to-do list.

moving away from that topic for now, i have the spring fling to think about. suprisingly, i'm not freaking out about it. i'm actually looking forward to it. even though i'm happy about friday (the friday coming up), i'm pissed. the theme is hollywood style, and i think me and my friend jade are going to be the only ones that don't have a "star-like" appearence. i'm not the one worrying it about it though, i could care less, but jade is complaining and whining about it , but it's all good. oh, i can't wait until after the dance, there are going to be so many after parties. me and some of my friends were playing around about going over to the highschool dance after ours (they're having an after party at the highschool. why, i don't know.) and dance with 10th and 11th graders . it would be fun if we did, but i know i would get in a lot of trouble. so we've decided instead of going to other peoples after parties, we're going out for dinner and maybe go to one party. jabu, jade, and anna are my dates lol. i can't wait.

while i'm on the topic of school, i just turned in my application for NJHS (National Junior Honors Society). i'm scared about whether i'm going to make it or not, but if i do, i think that i'll faint. yes, i know i'm overreacting, but i'm a drama queen, and i must represent my title. lol, but anyways, i'm really nervous about it, and i think my essay will be the reason why i won't make it. here's a piece of the essay, the part that i think will screw teh whole thing up.........

"I've heard from current members of NJHS that it's fun. I like to have fun and help people at the same time, so it's a good combination."

i don't think they'll like the whole combination part, but the rest of my application is good. hmm, i seem to have run out of thoughts so i'll stop here for the day.

starting over..........again

2005-04-28T21:19:00.000-07:00

i've decided to create another blog just for blogskins. i really didn't feel like modifying and fixing all my other blogs, so i just made another one. right now, with this layout, everything looks crowded, like in the poetry and lyrics part, but it won't stay like this. i haven't decided whether to keep this layout and change occasionally, or make another version, only bigger. anyways, feel free to look around and read my poetry, enjoy .